Let me say at the outset that I have met some amazing representatives of the medical community and all of them are caring people, dedicated to their profession. But, sjeesh, they can be a circus too.
And what really gets me going is the assumption that medical aid will pay and pay and pay. Not so when there is a mere hospital plan in place - then its the credit card that gets hung out to dry.
For two years, I have struggled with calf injuries which apparently have been anything from a spasm in a trigger point to tears in the muscle. My frustration is that I have run and ridden for years and now, I am battling on much lower running mileage.
So the physios poke and prod and stick needles in sensitive places. They test flexibility and suggest endless exercises to compensate. But one talks about muscles that are too tight and other muscles that are too weak. Another focuses on nerve mobility but the problem persists. Yet another just massages the hell out of the muscle so that I couldn't run if I tried. WTF. Oh and I didn't mention countless trips to the chiro which leaves me wonderfully straight but for the shortest time.
Then the GP gets in on the act unsolicited and gives another explanation after a cursory check. Then the sports specialists nods his head, asks a few questions and refers my case to the bio-kinetiscist and all of them charge like wounded buffalo.
By now, I could have bought several pairs of Assos cycling shorts for what I've spent on getting nowhere in terms of being able to run again.
But why, oh why, did none of them suggest measuring calf strength to check for imbalances and strength differential?? It seems so obvious now.
A session with the bio and so many things fall into place. A fancy machine which threatens to pop something throws up data showing between 15% and 26% difference in left and right leg. Plus, I get to see how off the scale (or not) my leg strength is. I get to see how certain movements are going to stress the muscles in my calf cos they simply aren't strong enough or balanced enough.
So its been a moerse rigmarole to get to this point and I think I can safely say that I have eliminated almost every other possible contributing factor with and without the help of the medical profession. The other upside is that my cycling may improve as a side benefit - just too weird.
Oh, the reason why I have wanted to run is because of the portaging we will do on the Freedom Challenge. Legendary bike carries such as Lehana Pass, The Ladder and Stettynskloof will require legs used to uneven ground, calves and achilles used to stretching and aching and thighs used to burning.
So, we will see how this latest attempt works out but suffice to say, I am at last hopeful.
Monday, March 2, 2009
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< h3 >*三種身至念< /h3 >
不淨觀頌(並敘)
佛為貪欲眾生說不淨觀,觀之既久,貪欲即除,可以越愛河而超苦海。余
閒居閱《大智度論》,因取意而為之頌,以此自警,並以警世云。
死想(先作此觀,為下九想張本):有愛皆歸盡,此身寧久長。替他空墮
淚,誰解反思量?
脹想:記得穠華態,俄成□脹軀。眼前年少者,容貌竟何如?
青瘀想:紅白分明相,青黃瘀爛身。請君開眼看,不是兩般人。
壞想:皮肉既墮落,五藏於中現。憑君徹底看,何處堪留戀。
血塗想:無復朱顏在,空餘殷血塗。欲尋妍醜相,形質漸模糊。
膿爛想:腐爛應難睹,腥臊不可聞。豈知膿潰處,蘭麝昔曾熏。
啖想:羊犬食人肉,人曾食犬羊。不知人與畜,誰臭復誰香?
散想:形骸一已散,手足漸移置。諦觀嫵媚姿,畢竟歸何處?
骨想:本是骷髏骨,曾將誑惑人。昔時看是假,今日睹方真。
燒想:火勢既猛烈,殘骸忽無有。試看煙焰中,著得貪心否?
前詩粗示端緒,尚未諦審觀察,復作五言律,以廣之。
死想:所愛竟長別,淒涼不忍看。識才離故體,屍已下空棺。夜火虛堂
冷,秋風素幔寒。勸君身在日,先作死時觀。
脹想:風大鼓其內,須臾□脹加。身如盛水袋,腹似斷藤瓜。垢膩深塗
炭,蠅蛆亂聚沙。曾因薄皮誑,翻悔昔年差。
青瘀想:風日久吹炙,青黃殊可憐。皮乾初爛橘,骨朽半枯椽。耳鼻缺還
在,筋骸斷復連。石人雖不語,對此亦潸然。
壞想:肌膚才脫落,形質便遭傷。瓜裂半開肉,蛇鑽欲出腸。枯藤纏亂
髮,濕蘚爛衣裳。寄語嬋娟子,休將畫糞囊。
血塗想:一片無情血,千秋不起人。淋漓塗宿草,狼藉汙埃塵。莫辨妍媸
相,安知男女身。哀哉癡肉眼,錯認假為真。
膿爛想:薄皮糊破紙,爛肉棄陳羹。膿血從中潰,蠅蛆自外爭。食豬腸易
嘔,洗狗水難清。不是深憎惡,何由斷妄情?
啖想:屍骸遭啖食,方寸少完全。不飽饑鳥腹,難乾饞狗涎。當年空自
愛,此日有誰憐。不若豬羊肉,猶堪值幾錢。
散想:四體忽分散,一身何所從。豈唯姿態失,兼亦姓名空。長短看秋
草,穠纖問晚風。請君高著眼,此事細推窮。
骨想:皮肉已銷鑠,唯餘骨尚存。雨添苔蘚色,水浸土沙痕。牽挽多蟲
蟻,收藏少子孫。風流何處去,愁殺未歸魂。
燒想:烈焰憑枯骨,須臾方熾然。紅飛天際火,黑透樹頭煙。妄念同灰
盡,真心並日懸。欲超生死路,此觀要精研。 [img]bighug[/img]
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< h3 >*修身觀─不淨觀< /h3 > 言自體不淨者即三十六物。一髮二毛三爪四齒五皮六肉七骨八髓九筋十脈十一脾十二腎十三心十四肝十五肺十六大腸十七小腸十八胃十九胞二十屎二十一尿二十二垢二十三汗二十四淚二十五浩二十六涕二十七唾二十八膿二十九血三十黃三十一白三十二肪三十三三十四腦三十五膜三十六精也。或論本九穴不淨名共相不淨。三十六物名自相不淨云云。又云何第五。終竟不淨者。謂是死後之九想之不淨是也云云。又云何云觀他不淨觀自不淨。答觀他身九相云觀他身不淨。問其他身九相者何。答他身九相者。一死相。二脹相。三瘀青相。四膿爛相。五壞相。六血塗相。七虫噉相。八骨鎖相。九離壞相也。
三十六物:指構成人身之三十六種要素。然關於數目,多有異說。據大明三藏法數卷四十八所舉,三十六物分為外相、身器、內含三類:
(一)外相十二物,髮、毛、爪、齒、眵、淚、涎、唾、屎、尿、垢、汗。
(二)身器十二物,皮、膚、血、肉、筋、脈、骨、髓、肪、膏、腦、膜。
(三)內含十二物,肝、膽、腸、胃、脾、腎、心、肺、生臟、熟臟、赤痰、白痰。
雜阿含經卷四十三則列髮、毛、爪、齒、塵垢、流涎、皮、肉、白骨、筋、脈、心、肝、肺、脾、腎、腸、肚、生臟、熟臟、胞、淚、汗、涕、沫、肪、脂、髓、痰、膿、血、腦、汁、屎、溺等三十六種。南本涅槃經卷二十二(大一二‧七四九中):「見凡夫身,三十六物不淨充滿」故「不淨觀」,即是觀三十六物不淨(自體不淨)。﹝增一阿含經卷二十五、大品般若經卷五、坐禪三昧經卷上﹞p156
(原經文)
優波尼沙陀,即從座起,頂禮佛足,而白佛言:我亦觀佛最初成道。觀不淨相,生大厭離。悟諸色性。以從不淨白骨微塵,歸於虛空。空色二無,成無學道。如來印我名尼沙陀。塵色既盡,妙色密圓。我從色相,得阿羅漢。佛問圓通,如我所證,色因為上。
(整段經文意思)
優波尼沙陀此云塵性,以觀塵性空而得道故。譯曰近少,微細,因等微細分析至極之言也義譯為微細,極至鄰虛(新譯曰極微。色法之最極少分,鄰似虛空者,此為色法之根本 謂諸識色及定中色,無障無礙,似於虛空,而實非虛空,故名鄰虛也),立即從座位上站起來,頂禮(五體投地以吾頂禮尊者之足也)釋迦摩尼佛的腳後,向釋迦摩尼佛報告說道:觀見如來最初成道的時候。作意思惟觀想,一者觀自身之不淨,二者觀他身之不淨。觀自身不淨,有九相:一死想,二脹想,三青瘀想,四膿爛想,五壞想,六血塗想,七蟲噉想,八骨鎖想,九分散想。觀他身有五不淨:一種子不淨,是身以過去之結業為種,現以父母之精血為種。二住處不淨,在母胎不淨之處。三自相不淨,是身具有九孔,常流出唾涕大小便等不淨。四自體不淨,由三十六種之不淨物所合成。五終竟不淨,此身死竟,埋則成土,蟲噉成糞,火燒則為灰,究竟推求,無一淨相,而生起大厭離心(謂我等當觀生死之中,虛假不實,如水上泡,速起速滅,往來流轉,猶如車輪。此身眾苦所集,一切皆是不淨,甚可厭離。當以此心而行懺悔也。)。了悟一切色性。以從不淨觀白骨觀作意思惟觀想,乃至逐步微細分析微塵極至鄰虛塵,分析到最後則歸於虛空。當達到空色二者均歸於空無之境界,便成就斷三界諸惑已盡,證真諦之理,不更要學修之圓滿智慧,阿羅漢之無漏智。如來印證我名叫尼沙陀(此云塵性,以觀塵性空而得道故。譯曰近少,微細,因等微細分析至極之言也義譯為微細,極至鄰虛(新譯曰極微。色法之最極少分,鄰似虛空者,此為色法之根本 謂諸識色及定中色,無障無礙,似於虛空,而實非虛空,故名鄰虛也))。一切微塵及青黃赤白等顯色及男女形色等之染污情識既然滅盡,微妙不可思議色相周密圓融無礙遍一切處。我從作意思惟觀想分析一切色塵中,證得阿羅漢果位。佛問我們,我們最初發心證悟十八界,是以什麼圓融周遍一切處,通達無礙,為修學之所緣? 如以我所證到的而言,我認為以色塵為最上圓通。
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例如以五臟為例,腎屬水,會發黑光,腎臟不好,因土剋水,脾強腎弱,
是脾害腎成病,當止腎病於脾,故以黑氣攝取黃氣,腎病者即能癒好。同
樣道理,脾屬土,會發黃光,脾臟不好係木剋土,肝強脾弱,當止脾病於
肝,以黃氣攝取青氣,脾病則癒好。心屬火,會發紅光,心臟不好,因水
剋火,腎害心成病,因腎強心弱,當止心病於腎,以赤氣攝取黑氣,心病
則癒好。肝屬木,會發青光,肝臟不好,因金剋木,肺害肝成病,因肺強
肝弱,當止肝病於肺,以青氣攝取白氣,肝病則癒好。肺屬金,會發白
光,肺臟不好,因火剋金,心害肺成病,因心強肺弱,當止肺病於心,以
白氣攝取紅氣,肺病則癒好。在基礎篇裏有這些論述,你的哪種臟器有
病,你就可觀想哪種光,是用物性轉你身體的狀況,萬法唯心造,有心人
在本身內臟有毛病時,打坐到最好時機,要觀想:我哪個毛病沒有了,我
那個有毛病的臟器發光了,一天想,二天想,想了一百次、一千次,想不
發光也不行,所以那個病就沒有了。
黑黃青白紅 赤氣攝取黑氣
黑氣攝取黃氣
黃氣攝取青氣
以青氣攝取白氣
白氣攝取紅氣